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Alone Following a Break-Up

By:Lorraine Turner
Date: Tue,25 Feb 2014
Submitter:The Upholsterer's Daughter
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I never thought I would find myself alone, after all I was born into a overcrowded family and married at the age of 18… having personal space was a luxury. But that marriage dissolved and my inability to be alone probably counts for the many unsuccessful relationships that followed. Oh sure, there were many other reasons and I don't mean to be glib about this, but the truth of the matter is that I did NOT know how to love myself– let alone others. And so in the year 2007 I did something that made a lot of people think I was crazy...I hit the RESET button and said NO MORE.

It wasn't like I woke up one day and said, hey Lorraine you need to love yourself. No, it was more like a feeling of emptiness. Something off, something missing and it was very deep. By this stage of my life I had raised three children and was now a grandparent. I had lived a role for others and in doing so, lost a bit of me. How? Aren't we supposed to be dutiful parents and give ourselves 24 hours a day to the needs of our offspring? And what about our grown parents, are we not supposed to drop everything and care for them as they become more needy? This is the the correct path, so why wasn't I happy? I adored my children and had a warm, loving relationship with my parents (they are both now in spirit). But I spent years battling insomnia and depression, and to be quite honest I was hoping some mornings I would just leave and go quietly into the spirit world... but that was then.

Hitting the reset button helped me to discover self-love. It wasn't easy contacting the lawyer and starting the divorce procedure, telling my kids I needed to start fresh, or telling my aging mother that I would call when I was settled. But you know what…it was pretty easy to quit my high-paying job, and swap all of my jewelry for cash. Yes, that part felt right, it felt solid, it felt like a huge GREEN LIGHT!

And so at the age of 52 I was finally alone. I drove 1400 miles to Key West, FL and found a tiny space I could barely afford. I came with the items I could stuff into my tiny car. No furniture, no pots or pans, no linen…just my laptop, art supplies and some summer clothes and flip-flops.

My new job paid me about the same hourly rate I earned in 1973 and let me tell you, it was day to day, penny to penny living. My furniture came from trash picks and yard sales. But little by little my tiny space began to feel like a palace. I was learning the importance of silence. I was learning what made me uncomfortable, happy, irritable, excited, bored… I was learning who Lorraine the person was. Not the mother, daughter, sister or friend person I had been, but the bubbling energetic child that had been squashed for a long time. I want to make it very clear that I hold no ill feelings or blame anyone, I am merely stating a fact that I was NOT BEING TRUE TO MYSELF.

As I began spending time alone I found there were bits and pieces of me that I either wanted to examine further or discard. But how…where do you begin? It was then that I discovered the magic of being alone. At first it felt lonely, and I was wondering if I had traded my insomnia for a new zip code. I now had a new problem, I was afraid of the dark and every bump in the night. Florida had geckos, eww, creepy little things that crawled into every crevice. I DON'T DO CREEPY THINGS! I came from a quiet suburban neighborhood with squirrels and blue jays. Now I had to dodge iguanas and don't even get me started about the Key West chickens, they are as common as palm trees crowing every time someone turns a light on. So how alone was I exactly?
to be continued...

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Lorraine Turner said:

Part 2 to this article:)
http://www.thespiritguides.co.uk/Article_Alone_Following_a_Break-Up_2_12841.aspx
Thank you ALL for your loving comments!
Lorraine
Sat,06 Sep 2014,14:16:40 GMT

brenda said:

I enjoyed your sharing of your journey to you. You walked back to yourself which is what I am doing, sort of. I have had many failed relationships and at some point I had come to that same realization..it was me and who am I ? So the journey continues and I would of loved to moved to Key West, lovely !!! I look for ward to your next article. Much light to you on your new awakening. Brenda
Sun,02 Mar 2014,17:57:47 GMT

penny said:

thanks for taking the time to write your article, it has made me ponder over my own life being a wife, mother, grandmother and work as support worker; the me has been lost since being a child and it's now time for me to take control of my life and find the real me . thanks once again
Sun,02 Mar 2014,12:47:02 GMT

lynn said:

I can fully relate to this. I am going through the same thing andhave hit this point. This made me feel as if I am not alone.It has given me encouragement to think that I am not being selfish wanting to find myself and space and peace.
Sun,02 Mar 2014,09:59:24 GMT

Julie said:

I loved your article! I am going through the same thing! After 29 years of marriage my husband just left me! I find myslef lonely and depressed. I am on my own and not sure if I like it!! :) I am eeking by month to month like you! I am happy for you in finding yourself!! I am not there yet! Good luck in life!!
Sun,02 Mar 2014,08:08:21 GMT
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